On self destructive behavior?

No, and I mean no disrespect, you are taking drugs because you want to get high and "feel good." That is all. As for your backporch radicalism, it's all a bunch of words until you take action and start protesting something that matters to you. Organize against a local dump site or in support of cooperative farming programs or whatever. Heck, organize to save the farmer. You are someone who reads a few books and suddenly are the loudest guy/gal at Barnes and Noble cafe. Again, I am not insulting you but making a point that you are playing a role.